Surgery Nerves

I'm suppose to be drinking 4 protein shakes a  day I barely made it through my first one, I am nervous, I do not eat when I am nervous, well in this case drink.   What feels like a million thoughts are rolling through my head.   I couldn't sleep last night I just kept thinking.  I'm ok now a bit more settled but I worked myself up last night and I have spent today trying to find my calm place again.

I suppose it is just nerves.  Who wouldn't be nervous?? tomorrow I am guaranteed to be in pain, pain I paid for.  I know the end result is what matters but no one in their right mind looks forward to at least two weeks of pain.  Hopefully it won't be that long.

I am excited to lose weight, I've already lost 8 pounds, in a week.  

My support system is amazing all those who love me have been keeping my mind occupied while I got through this week.  For them I am so grateful.  Now to just get through tonight, maybe with a little bit of sleep.  Tomorrow I go in and change my life forever, a bit dramatic I know but it's the truth. 



So here it goes:

Pre-liquid diet weight: 255 pounds
Pre-surgery weight: 247 pounds
Size: 18/20

I will post "before" and "after" pictures when I lose my first "big" amount, I don't just want pictures up with no results.